Went to Watsons,
watsons, and managed to spend nearly 45 minutes.
The big ass one in Taka. Went with Jane and we poked around the shelves questioning everything and anything.
Ranting time..Why is it that we sometimes try so hard to hold on to stuff that we know will eventually just die out or fade out of presence? Why do we even bother using so much energy and effort in trying? Its like holding on to water in cupped hands- it'll all spill out no matter how cupped and steady we keep our hands. And the existance of things that will always be a constant reminder of our loss like MSN and such. Is it human nature? That it is just in us to keep on trying and trying because since the dawn of time, we've always been greedy and have to have everything? Or is it our individual characters? That some people wont but some people will still try?Or is it our pragmatic sides, telling us that its plain dumb to let things that mean so much to us go just like that simply because time and space are the barriers? Especially since all barriers can be crossed? Or is it our sentiments, that just wont let us free ourselves from our pasts, and the people and things that make it up? Because some of those people and things mean too much to let go? Shit. I hate to get so sentimental-ly emotional. But yeah, after re-reading that entire chunk im guessing the answer to my question would be a little of each. Answering my own questions. Im going nuts.Like hell im not talking about boy-girl relationships. Right now im happy single.Its just that certain friendships that were once thriving are now slowly fading to black, corroded by once again, time and space. Its sad if you think about it. Everything that went in, all those years, all that time, gone. it really makes one think. Because out of say 10 friendships, im guess only 2-3 lasts for years, and 1 or even none are lifelong. If so, then what's the whole bloody point in dabbling with that tricky temptress- friendship?Im guessing (again) that it would be 'cause no one really wants to be alone all the time, everyone NEEDS friends at certain points of time and that, sometimes you just like certain people. Sigh. I know what im ranting about because sadly enough, im going through it. im slowly losing my friends, and im powerless to stop it. and one of them is one of my best friends. thinking about it is melancholic. such proves the age-old statement"time will test all boundaries"
