I cant say i told you so, because its far too late and at this point of time, saying something so insensitive is heartless. I just never got a bigger shock in my entire life. At this point of time all any of us can do is pray for you and hope that you'll pull through.

Im not really in the mood to do anything but blogging keeps me occupied. better than obsessing,

work yesterday. went to meet jane after work. headed down to hereen to wait for everyone.

realized we overshot the time and everyone left without us but we bumped into her friends who gave us a lift down.

entrance fee was waved last night because they were voted top 5 nightspots of the year or something like that. house all the way and i worship joshua, he's a freaking good dancer. didnt drink much, which was just as well.

and then at around midnight, i got that damn call. rushed off and didnt get home till late. feel like a complete loser for leaving so early but given the circumstances, sigh.

On MC today. woke up with a high fever, constant nausea and even my freaking eye was swollen. must have been the old dude coughing next to me. gross.

i now know what's it like to be so afraid till the extent you cant even cry, or do anything at all. just please, pull through.