Ive been reduced to re re re re re re reading all my old books and comics because BOTH kino and borders are taking far too long to bring in the new books. By rights, based on american publishing dates, i can buy one book a month all the way till june. From the 4 series im addicted to.

Chic lit of course. Im a bimbo at heart, and trashy novels a requirement necessity.

Nevertheless, reading is still reading, and i still need a form of relaxation that doesnt include spending gobs of -what little- cash i have.


Im kinda freaked out that school is starting. Back to books, back to lectures and back to studying.

But im grateful. And i will give it my all because..

Just because.


The funny thing about (read: ranting time) growing up is that you are sometimes unable to identify and understand the different ways we respond to the respective situations.

Try experiencing jealously, hatred, anger, relief. happiness, hope, pity and overwhelming sadness all at once and you'll get what i mean.

Its like you're lost in a forest and you stumble upon so many different forks at once, and you dont know which way is the best.

Or in this situation, which emotion to deal with first, especially when by rights, you shouldnt be feeling anything at all.

And after talking today, i realize it doesnt just affect me. IM NORMAL!!!

Im eternally grateful that there are people i can talk to, because its all about learning. And its also kinda comforting to know that there are other species of people like me. LOL.

Sigh there we go again. Vulnerability.


And. I may be getting my tattoo soon.

I know i keep saying that.

Ive already got it all planned out. Going to find the translation for 'Moon' in saxon/latin/hebrew and tattoo that. There's a long story behind it which im too lazy to type out.

Its planned, but i wont do it until a turning point happens in my life, the closest one would be school opening. A fresh start. Being abit melodramatic but that's just me. Id rather that than have a big splat of ink somewhere on my body that is totally meaningless.

My body isnt a canvas, and tattoos ARE permanent. Even laser surgery leaves scars.