HELLO.

uh. class was at. 8 am this morning. #%@&$&*# damn early. super disgusting. and it was only for two hours. wth. like waste time going to school ah.

slacked around after class cause i didnt have to go anywhere till around 5. i think i was driving ling and timmy mad with my "should i go to work"s. lolllll.

i went in the end. happy ling?

Timmy sent me to work. awww thank you =)

it was one of those erratic night, as i said to a patron. it was quiet and then WHAM. the crowd hit me like a big yellow school bus. tiring shit. everyone was ordering set meals and like, must serve desserts all so they'll dilly dallly. and then the big table was reserved somemore. -.-

one table stayed there for 3 hours. they left at 11 on the dot as i predicted.

daddy came to fetch me. very random and very unexpected goodwill. hmm.

im currently not logged in to msn YET. i want to go bathe first.im starting to feel sleepy already. shit.

but before i go. i was reading an archie comic and the word "sacrifice" was screaming at me from the page.

it made me wonder. how much would i be willing to sacrifice for the person i love, and would more sacrifice mean that i love the person more? and does the accumalation of the more minor sacrifices total up to be one big gigantic sacrifice?

but most importantly, would i really have to sacrifice something to prove that i love someone?

because 'love' is such a overrated word these days. people throw it around and use it for all the wrong reasons, as and when they like it. its lost its value. im pretty sure that once upon a time, when people said "i love you", they REALLY REALLY meant it. like, REALLY.

read: dinosaur age.

anyway, my point is. in modern times, and because im a "flighty" (according to adults lah) teenager, do my "i love you"s mean any less? and to prove to people that i really DO indeed love someone, would i have to sacrifice a great deal?

actually i dont really care whether people believe i love him or not and i dont feel a need to prove anything but yeah, just food for thought.

and i feel unsettled because as much as i say and know that i WILL sacrifice (god knows what), what if when the time calls for it, im not in a position to do so? and if because of circumstances i dont, does that mean i love him any less?

HMMM.

eh, im never drinking red bull before bed time again.


i love you i love you I LOVE YOU.

and no amount of iloveyous will ever truly be enough.

see this heart?

its yours.

keep it, break it, smash it, protect it, i dont care. because for the very first time, it wont matter what happens because well, it was you that caused something to happen in the first place. and i think, that's all that matters. =)