Yes i know im being contradictory but fuck. Just ignore this. Posting this because i am selfish and want to complain to PEOPLE in general, but i dont want the people to worry about me. Or ask how i am because im in a mood where acts of kindness will piss me off. Sorry. Just like, ignore. I'll be ok.

I feel like a fucking attention seeking brat who is pretending not to want attention but secretly wants it and all that screwed up shit.

Hear ye hear ye one and all,

im not asking for attention, i really am not. Dont need to tag, dont need to sms, dont need to ask me stuff on msn. Its just a mood. dont get hyped up.

fuck now im sounding egoistic. as if there'll be like, lots of people who'll get hyped up for my sake.

Im feeling lousy. Im in a mood where i just want to isloate myself from the world. Preferably sleep because i know i'll be ok by tomorrow. Nbcb i hate myself when i get into moods like this because its utterly uncalled for and selfish and unnecessary.

im feeling damn pissed off and irritated by everything. even my new phone is pissing the hell out of me. and it didnt even do anything. like, it didnt screw up on me. i think im pmsing. post pms. fuck my hormones.

ok actually now i feel better. ranting helps. oh yes. rant to myself.

ok no fuck. the mood is crashing again. fuck fuck fuck. i should go shoot myself. this is no good.

i think my brain is on overdrive. i am thinking too much. one thought leads to the other kind of thing.

im making a big deal out of nothing, and i supposedly hate people who make mountains out of molehills, which is exactly what im doing now. yay so i shall hate myself.

i need to stop thinking, and push all these fucked up thoughts out of my head. im stronger than this. im above all this shit in my head. i shouldnt HAVE so much shit in my head. god. are my brains turning to fluff now?

i really dont know whats wrong with me. my fingers are flying over the keyboard and typing shit. i have no reason to justify why i feel this way. maybe my brain something wrong. some bipolar thingy i keep reading about.

im stupid. yes i am. i should shoot myself. for no good reason im feeling this way. and life is good. great friends, great boyfriend. in fact, i was cracking up the entire day, feeling on top of the world, high and elated. Timmy even sent me home, the sweet sillyboy. And i had fun poking him and stuff too. shit. im asking for alot. actually no wait, im not asking for anything.

ah i'll stop here. im starting to become incoherent. yes my internal editor is off. like i said, please ignore all that. i am still sane so yeah. i'll still be in school tomorrow. bah.