so i start work soon.


and i need to clear my head. im pmsing like crazy, and its not good for anyone.

dont laugh, mock or sneer.





1. How are you feeling today?
assuming im in an alternate universe where i just won the first prize for today's 4D, id be beyond happy. but since that didnt happen, im a 3 on a scale of 1 to 10.

2. Where did you go yesterday?
work orientation and timmy's.

3. Who do you miss badly?
badly? no one.

4. What are you doing now?
arent you a regular einstein. doing this, duh.

5. Honestly, are you a racist?
honestly, no.

6. Do you like rock/hardcore music?
rock i guess. i dunno, dont listen to music alot.

7. What's your hobby?
uhh. wow maybe, hanging out with tim and sy and the rest. timmy's bed, yeah definitely his bed. reading. you know, typical healthy teenage stuff.

8. Where do you wanna go right now?
no where really. thailand?

9. What do you see in life?
a big waste time with added bonuses to make the time go by faster.

10. If you could do anything that's without punishment, what'd you do?
ROB A BANK. (and kill a person or two for kicks)

11. Do you follow the law?
more or less?

12. Are you considered a happy person?
pretty much.

13. Where are your siblings?
in his room.

14. Do you smoke alot?
'alot' is subjective.

15. Do you drink alot?
no.

16. What do you think about cats/kittens?
freaking adorable.

17. Do you still watch Barney?
if by watch you mean occasionally see him dance around in my head (black backdrop here) then yeah.

18. Anyone who has inspired you in any ways?
dont make me laugh.

19. Do you like being in school?
its ok.

20. Are you anti-social?
i try not to be.

21. Do you trust your friends easily?
no.

22. Ever betrayed the person you cared the most for?
if i was fucking drunk and damn high, i might act out of character and do something that i regret doing but otherwise no. id never.

23. What's on your mind right now?
pickles.

24. Rain, sun or windy?
wind.

25. Are you in love?
call me little miss tied down and throw a bouquet of flowers at me.

26. What's your sister doing?
what makes you think i have a sister?

27. Ever been to a dog show?
Nope

28. Do you eat pork?
i love ham. and salami. and pepperoni. and sausages. oh and bacon, musnt forget bacon.

29. Ever gotten Dengue Fever?
no. mosquitoes dont come near me for some reason.

30. If you can have 1 super power, what'd it be?
teleport! think of all the cab fare i'd be saving.

31. Where do you study & do you like it?
ngee ann, mass comm. its a love hate thing.

32. Anything that's bothering you right now?
oh yeah. nothing a cigarette or two.. or three won't cure/

33. Ocean, sea, river or swimming pool?
the ocean.

34. Have you ever been to UK?
no.

35. What surprises you?
these days? nothing.

36. What time is it now?
11 52 pm.

37. Are you home-sick?
with regard to recent events, i'll be politically smart and not answer this right now.

38. Do you wanna go out & shop?
i wanna go out & get money so i can go out & shop.

39. What do you hate the most?
lizards.

40. Remember your past?
of course.



fuck this. i need a smoke.

so hello.


its pouring like mad, and i dont relish the idea of having to go out.

the interview yesterday went ok, but im still not hired. i have some orientation thing to go to today before they decide whether they want me or not.

and then there's another interview tomorrow for a job that pays more.


i hate such states of paralysis.


i havent smoked in 3 days, and not to sound like a crazed addict or anything, but my head is pounding is like mad.


i have vcds to return, and i bet they're all overdue already.

and i have tons of weight to lose. i havent got the bleeding motivation to go out and run. help me.


i need a job asap. i need to do something. staying at home means i'll snack while gaming, and going out means spending money on food.


and there's still that advertising presentation that i hope pulls through.


and im so in love with a pair of Ted Baker pants. i think they'd look really good with a pair of black stilettos.

i just finished stealth bombing a few cannons and peons and im ready to call it a day.


i am so unemployed.

nearly got a job a Mezzerah, or Mezzarah or was it Mezziah at clarke quay. someone correct me, if i get hired there, i better know how to spell the bar's name.

its a pretty nice place that offers shisha and stuff but curse my mother for not conceiving me earlier and thus allowing me to have a birthdate that falls within the first quarter of the year. i'm not as 18 as the bar wants me to be.

the manager guy says he'll call me back after he checks something. sigh.



so tomorrow i got 2 interviews set up, along with the uncounted few in the classifieds.

im getting sick of filling in application forms.



time to go watch a few animes and then cab home.



note: timmy has incredibly sharp teeth.

the days left in this house is slowly dwindling.

forget the imac, i need the money for a better cause.

we go through many emotions in our lifetime, and the more common ones would be happiness, sadness and anger.

funny how that at extremes stages of these emotions, our body expresses it through crying.



"what good is a dream come true if you have no one to share it with"

timmy's like <-> close to hitting 70!



so.

im updating more! not that anyone cares but ive got MORE free time on my hands now that most of the stuff is over.

and it feels weird to be on holiday today.



anyway. mom went to bangkok and look what i got.




i know its a gay pink, but i guess it not really nice to steal my brother's black one and make him use this one so...

i know its a fake iPod, but at least it works. and its 4G and has a folder for text files so hello to new thumbdrive.


its irrinoyingly cute. and its so light. ive been throwing it around timmy's face for the past 1/2 hour and disturbing his leveling process.

heh heh. =D



so. i'll be leaving soon and going down to Vivo to meet Sy. if we catch the fireworks yay, if not who cares.

for the day that happens to be the nation's birthday, its been pretty good.



mwah to you.

so tv pro is done for good.

was just watching what we did and surprisingly, it wasnt too bad.


now im at the atrium waiting for Timmy. nice breezy day it is. Ying is cursing InDesign and people are eating ice cream.

im done with the slides for MM presentation so i can not worry about until friday. i dont know what im going to do about MRM exam, but im not too concerned about that right now.


im more worried about my face ah. i know, i know, im being a bimbo but fuck. ive never seen my skin this sallow in my entire life. its puffy and round too, hoho.

oh yes, my hair is falling out.


im getting quite freaked. all i need to do is run my fingers through my hair when im putting leave on and like. BOOM. lotsa hair just gets threaded around my fingers.

tsk.



i cant wait for all this to be over so i can get my life back.


for two months, at least.



QUEK SINGYI, i want to go harbouring soon please.

life is just one endless loop of problems.


there, i just figured out the meaning of life. sometimes i cant help but think we're like, characters from the Sims and the powers above are playing us like a computer game for amusement.

and like, when the want new characters and are sick of us, they kill us of i.e, Swim-> Sell Ladder



anyway. im on bed. and i pretty much intend to stay here until i go out later. like, at 9pm or so. everything is almost over. just mm, which is just about chucking slides together, and newswriting, which is just about hell.

advertising was totally worth all the money, the frustration and the kill-me-now moments and all those sleepless nights. im totally convinced to take creative advertising in year 3. totally and utterly convinced.

mrm was... mrm. (mmmmmerm)

tv pro was scary, but it went ok.



so. just the aforementioned modules and 2 exams left. i can already smell the freedom.