school has started for about 4 weeks now.

i find myself drifting through the days, not really knowing what im doing or why im doing it. i guess i havent got a motivation. in secondary school, ngeeann masscomm was my goal, my dream. i had something to work for.

now i dont.

university is just a great big blur. sure, i pretty much mapped out what i want to do with my life for the next 5 years but who's to say its going to go the way i want.

the only thing im looking forward to is the overseas internship next year. kiasu me is already sourcing and trying to secure contacts for Ivan, myself and hopefully Timmy.

4 months is a long time.


i think it would be awesome to get away from singapore for 4 months. maybe i'll come back with a more positive outlook on things.


imagine going to bangkok or new york for 4 months. damn sweet i tell you.




sigh.

i dont like myself introspective. like i want to sit somewhere quiet and smoke my way through a packet of ciggies.

which i imagine won't be very good for me the next day.


on a brighter note, payday is coming. i get to reap the rewards my patience has brought me. honestly, i never gave a damn how your day was, i only did it to get a drink out of you. or to up my bottle sales. or make it look as though i was working hard. take your pick.

(although to be honest, there IS a small handful (very very small) of customers whom i'm actually glad to see. now these are the people who get a sincere how-was-your-day from me.)



in any case,

i have decided to bring the camera with me everywhere i go until i think ive got enough photos for the webd journal.

i might actually enjoy this assignment.



thank goodness for the little things that make this life alot more bearable.




a random thought about materialism;
does coveting die off after a while?